My first heartbreak :3

I need some fresh air now,
Thought of you just suffocates me.
I am all by myself now
I don't need anyone to ever be with me
I feel alone in the crowd
But what difference does it ever make to you baby
It's just me now thinking about you lately

I never cried in my life
But you were the reason I let  the tears out of my eye lids
I never saw someone being as good as you yet you're the one giving me my first heartbreak

People say lot of things
Sometimes I wonder why didn't I ever listen to it
The lights are still on this room
But I can feel darkness inside my soul
Everyone seems so happy
Or just fake it.
Why can't I be just like them?

Yeah I get it
It's hard to let everything go
And move ahead
but why did I ever want you in the first place
Is it you holding me in the strings of love which I never wanted
I changed into something that I hate
Is it all just my mistake

I never cried in my life
But you were the reason I let  the tears out of my eye lids
I never saw someone being as good as you yet you're the one giving me my first heartbreak

I see your eyes in my dreams
Staring in mine so we can talk about thousand things
Your hair waving in the air makes me wanna go crazy
Is it only me caring so much?
Is it me just leaving everything apart.
Cause all I ever wanted was good for you baby.

I never cried in my life
But you were the reason I let  the tears out of my eye lids
I never saw someone being as good as you yet you're the one giving me my first heartbreak

My friends want to be myself again
But where can I find the pieces
Which you stole away
From me making me incomplete.
I am sorry for every mistake
I am sorry for everything which went wrong
Can we start it once again?
Cause I still remember the day when you gave me my first heart break.
~Ricky Parker