Tuesday 21 April 2015

A tribute.

This is dedicated to every person who is harassed by someone in anyway.

I don't need anything I thought
I have everything nothing to regret about
Yet born as a human, my greedy mind wanted something more.
I killed thousand people took everything from them,
Still my greediness didn't go down.
I asked myself what I want?
Brain thought it was the right time to trick me and make fall behind
It said to me, take over the world.
I foolishly ignored the values I had learnt,
I became the devil who people wanted to get rid off,
My soul even feared my very existence,
This time I asked my heart
Is this what I really wanted?
It just replied, you had everything
Yet you felt nothing.
Now you have everything which is becoming nothing
Is this what you want?
I hid myself in shame,
My own heart disapproved my very existence
I wanted to end my life,
I was going to die,
When a cell inside me shouted,
We live and die for you to survive,
You coward, you selfish creature.
Don't you owe us one?
For doing this much work.
I nodded in disgust,
I lived like a dead corpse,
My heart spoke again to me
This time A little gentler and said.
All you need now is little time and love
Before I could say back,
I was already in heaven surrounded
By everything I like
~Ricky Parker 

Sunday 19 April 2015

Boom? Boom.


 Lost in the world
Trying to find someone
Someone who could hold me close
Someone who could fulfil all my dreams
Looking around in this crowded street
See million people roam
I don't even who will be that someone to me
And then you pop up
In front of me
I am stuck in you
Everything around me is flying


Boom boom boom
My heart is beating
Boom Boom Boom
My heart is breaking
Boom Boom Boom
Where are you baby
Boom Boom Boom
It's time to be crazy.
Let's all get wasted.

You look at me
With those small green eyes
I am paralysed
It feels like you're miles away
You're coming near me
My whole body sweats
My heart squeals to run
But my body won't move an inch.
I stand in the crowd like a statue


Boom boom boom
My heart is beating
Boom Boom Boom
My heart is breaking
Boom Boom Boom
Where are you baby
Boom Boom Boom
It's time to be crazy.
Let's all get wasted.

You come closer and closer
I don't know how to feel
It feels we both are alone in this whole wide world
Am I being dramatic?
I ask myself for fifteen times
At last I gain control over my body
I turn over and go away
But my heart wants to see you again

Boom boom boom
My heart is beating
Boom Boom Boom
Where are you baby
Boom Boom Boom
It's time to be crazy.
Let's all get wasted.

I turn one more time
To see you're going another way
To another girl standing
My heart feels broken
I smile to my self
How much stupid I can be
My heart suddenly feels out of blood

Boom boom boom
My heart is beating
Boom Boom boom
My heart is breaking
Boom Boom Boom
Where are you baby
Boom Boom Boom
It's time to be crazy.
Let's all get wasted.

I see you're running to her now
I know how this story will end
I turn and walk away from this place
But my body feels weak
Maybe we all have attractions
To get broken few more times in life
I let go off all those imagination.
But then I hear someone breathing hard behind me
I feel like a dog is back of me waiting to bite
But a voice inside me says turn back
I see the same boy standing behind
I don't know what to do
His face is redder than the color red
He is looking at me with his eyes again
I feel like a four year old now
He smiles with his cola lips. and asks me this time
Why you make my heart go boom boom girl?
Now stay with me forever and heal it
You mad girl

Boom boom boom
My heart is beating
Boom Boom boom
My heart is breaking
Boom Boom Boom
Where are you baby
Boom Boom Boom
It's time to be crazy.
Let's both get wasted.
~Ricky Parker

Saturday 18 April 2015

BURN :3

You're like a piece of paper to me
Which i wanna burn
See the black ashes
And shout in happiness
You might think I am crazy
What am I even saying?
You always thought that.
My dear,  are you sure?
That you really truly loved me.

Meeting me, greeting me
Smiling at me, laughing at your jokes.
All I wanna do is burn,
Burn these memories
And you.
So burn baby burn
Burn baby burn
Just burn and shout in pain.
P-a-i-n
Burn baby burn
Cause I wanna let you know
The taste of you you burning
My heart this way.

For mullion times
I asked everyone
Why is it necessary to burn
Those people who died.
Everyone gave me thousand answers
I still was not satisfied
(S-A-T-I-S-F-I-E-D)
But now I realise
Why they do it.
You know why
Why why why
Cause they want to see
The souls burning
Shouting in pain
The soul which caused
So many misery!
I want you to die this way

Why don't you just die?
Don't break one more heart
Don't spoil one more life.
So burn baby burn
Burn baby burn
Just burn and shout in pain.
P-a-i-n
Burn baby burn
Cause I wanna let you know
The taste of you you burning
My heart this way.

They say I am being cruel
They say I am being mean.
Do they know how my sheriked in pain
(P-a-I-n)
All I want to do is the same to you.
How does that make me mean anyway?

So burn baby burn
Burn baby burn
Just burn and shout in pain.
P-a-i-n
Burn baby burn
Cause I wanna let you know
The taste of you you burning
My heart this way.

Let my feelings go
Watching you fade away
Even the ashes show
The true colour of your heart
That even Devil is better than you.
At least he ain't faking anything
So burn. just burn.
 Die just die.
Away just fade away!
 Away away away

~Ricky Parker

Wednesday 15 April 2015

A lecture, if you wanna avoid it the song is below it!

Hey everyone! Yes I know I said I am going to take break of two weeks but well I just couldn't I just had such an intresting week that not expressing about it would be rather stupidity! Well so for the first thing I quit almost social media for a month as I wanted to find myself. Well I seriously don't kno why I used "to find myself" line but well! And it's actually intresting. I didn't know that after chocolate I could get addicted to something like nature and this place weather I am in love with it! As I almost wrote 18 songs in a week. Some intresting facts I knew about myself was that I really love to watch the frogs jump. I know it sounds ridiculous but it's just beautiful seeing them jump and croak it's their own beautiful melody which fascinates me. I seriously dislike dogs. But this certain dog I met while walking in the road took my heart away, unfortunately I can't keep it because it belongs to someone else. But I understood one thing dogs are amazing just that I have to not judge them before, and the grass really looks amazing if you just sprinkle a little water and sleep in them. This place is absolute beauty which I couldn't see for years. I suddenly feel like I lived my whole life in a totally diffrent place, that thought actually haunts me. I love rains, I got to dance in one yesterday after star gazing with a friend of mine, that gave me eternal happiness, and a stupid yet beautiful memory I would always remember, why am I telling you all this? Well the reason is we all live life in  the most unhealthiest way and miss out all the fun. So all we gotta do is explore.
Ps: I miss you all.
P.s.s : I am not writting this a friend of mine is.
P.s.s.s : wish me luck to find more intrest in life and make it worth living
P.s.s.s : I have a poem for you all, just scroll down.

I don't need anything I thought
I have everything nothing to regret about
Yet born as a human, my greedy mind wanted something more.
I killed thousand people took everything from them,
Still my greediness didn't go down.
I asked myself what I want?
Brain thought it was the right time to trick me and make fall behind
It said to me, take over the world.
I foolishly ignored the values I had learnt,
I became the devil who people wanted to get rid off,
My soul even feared my very existence,
This time I asked my heart
Is this what I really wanted?
It just replied, you had everything
Yet you felt nothing.
Now you have everything which is becoming nothing
Is this what you want?
I hid myself in shame,
My own heart disapproved my very existence
I wanted to end my life,
I was going to die,
When a cell inside me shouted,
We live and die for you to survive,
You coward, you selfish creature.
Don't you owe us one?
For doing this much work.
I nodded in disgust,
I lived like a dead corpse,
My heart spoke again to me
This time A little gentler and said.
All you need now is little time and love
Before I could say back,
I was already in heaven surrounded
By everything I like
~Ricky Parker 

Wednesday 8 April 2015

two weeks break :3

I am leaving behind everything
Looking towards the light ahead of me
Don't worry about me
I want to be free
I got tangled in a huge mess
Which made everyone feel
Guilty,  of how they have a friend like me.
I wanna get away to a lonely place
I would love to be alone for a while
Away from every problems I got in life
I wanna relax and be free
So I just close my eyes
Look at the beautiful world I imagined
And it makes me cry that
When my vital organs don't work
I see beauty in everything
That makes me say that a
Physically challenged is more beautiful than
A healthy human being.
Maybe having faults is the best
But I need time to heal myself again
I km its okay be broken hearted sometimes
I know everything seems bad sometimes
But It takes time to digest the feelings
It takes time to cry out the pain.
I didn't have a heartbreak
Or got abused by anyone
But the fear inside me is
Eating me alive
Bit my bit
That's it feels hard to survive
I didn't ask for them best life
All I ever wanted was a good life
A life without regrets
But all i do now is regret
Every moment.
I wanna sit behind someone
I wanna be special person
I wanna be the one who can make someone smile
I don't wanna be invisible anymore
I don't wanna share weird post
Which says how life is so messed up
I also want to dream about someone
About something which I would get
I don't wanna be in the cage which gives me nothing but pain.
I wanna change become the old me
All I need is time,
Being alone.
So let me go for some time
I will be back as the one you want.

P.s - guys I am taking a break for a week from everything so have fun enjoy life :)

~Ricky Parker

Saturday 4 April 2015

xD :3

It's been six month since
You and me were together girl
We had our own misery to live with
Every fight I had with you
Made me love you more
Even the parts which are very insane
Light's up my world.
Every mistake you make
I am have been the auto correct till now
The way you stared at me
Is the only thing I can ever think about
We together will succeed in
Reaching our destiny

Cause baby I love you so much
So much that even the
Hottest chic in earth gets extinct
Even rihana stops walking
In her sexy way.
Even THE WANTED stop singing
You will be the reason I will be living for

I am living far away from you
Well it feels like I am in
The abbys of chaos
You are the only reason
I wanna be out
We danced in rain together
Holding each other
Like kindergarten kids
We trusted each other for even stupidest secrets
We fought together for those
Left over chocolates and
I let you have them all.
Your whole face grew red
Whenever I talked about something perverted
Well ain't you always the good one?
These things makes my heart to beat

Cause baby I love you so much
So much that even the
Hottest chic in earth gets extinct
Even rihana stops walking
In her sexy way.
Even THE WANTED stop singing
You will be the reason I will be living for

So girl let's live forever
Let's dream only about each other
Let's smile because of each other
Cause you're the one
Who makes me feel new
Every second.

~Ricky Parker


Thursday 2 April 2015

The Door :3

You're knocking on the door again
Saying it's the last time
You will ever be with me
Yet asking me to see you
One last time
I am here inside my room
Asking you to go away,
The sound of the door cracking
Is heard by everyone,
The neighbours are peeping out
Gossiping about us,
Yet you're standing outside still
With so much patience,
Which makes me cry more

I wait for you to go
Yet you're standing outside
Like a statue which can't be moved
My heart just starts beating harder
My breathe is going high
Yet I don't open the door,
It now feels like,
I am in a cage where
You're trying to save me
Yet I don't wanna be saved.

The rain is pouring so hard
Lighting is striking everything down,
Everyone is rushing to a safe place
Yet you're standing here
In front  of the door
Knocking again and again
Waiting for me to open
But baby I want you to know
That  I am the person
 who you  would never
See again.


You're waiting for such a long time
Now many eons have pasYou're knocking on the door again
Saying it's the last time
You will ever be with me
Yet asking me to see you
One last time
I am here inside my room
Asking you to go away,
The sound of the door cracking
Is heard by everyone,
The neighbours are peeping out
Gossiping about us,
Yet you're standing outside still
With so much patience,
Which makes me cry more

I wait for you to go
Yet you're standing outside
Like a statue which can't be moved
My heart just starts beating harder
My breathe is going high
Yet I don't open the door,
It now feels like,
I am in a cage where
You're trying to save me
Yet I don't wanna be saved.

The rain is pouring so hard
Lighting is striking everything down,
Everyone is rushing to a safe place
Yet you're standing here
In front  of the door
Knocking again and again
Waiting for me to open
But baby I want you to know
That  I am the person
 who you  would never
See again.


You're waiting for such a long time
Now many eons have passed by,
We both haven't ate anything since that day,
Or even drank a sip of water
Yet we both survive like immortals.
I try to get up and leave,
Leave the door and go to some other place
But your love is holding me back.
I think to open this door
End your pain,
But then you would leave
That thought haunts me.

Are you being selfish or selfless dear?
Cause all we both can feel is the effect of
The painful love we share,
I wait for you to stop knocking,
And just leaving me without
A sad goodbye,
Lots of people gather around you,
Asking you if you have gone mad.
Why won't you leave me now?
After all if I open the door
You're gonna go anyway,
You don't answer and keep on knocking
I am here keep on hopping you would stop someday,

The earthquake is shaking the land
The flood is destroying everything.
Everyone is rushing to a safe place
Yet you're standing here
In front  of the door
Knocking again and again
Waiting for me to open
But baby I want you to know
That I am the person
 who you  would never
See again.

Your hands are full of scars now,
Blood is rushing out from every part of your body,
Eagles are flying  above you
Waiting to eat the flesh out of you,
Yet you stand out like a brave warrior
Fighting the door for years,
I am helpless, my heart is aching badly
I want to run to you now
Hold you close let my tears heal your every pain,
Let my kiss wash every sorrow in your life,
But I am holding myself because
Of one selfish thought.

The day has come,
When angels come for me,
To take me away to the heavens
Away from you,
I want you to break the door now,
But you're just knocking
Wanting me to let you in for a last time
The angels are even crying seeing you.
What have I done to you?
Why did I ever make you go through everything.

The satan is coming for your soul
The gods are asking you to come to them, be one among them.
Yet you're standing here
In front  of the door
Knocking again and again
Waiting for me to open
But baby I want you to know
That I am the person
 who you  would never
See again.

For the one last time I say I love you,
And close my eyes.
The door breaks now but you break with it.
Your body is shattered like broken piece of glass,
The eagles  which wanted to feast on you
Are bowing down to you now,
I see a soul floating past me saying
I Met you at last, now it's my time to go.
I don't know how I should feel,
I wave you goodbye,
And always have this memory stapled to my soul

That even after every difficulty
Even after me asking you to leave
Your hazel eyes turning to red because of the blood rushing out from them,
You could have left without seeing me
It wouldn't have done anything to you.

Yet you were standing here
In front  of the door
Knocking again and again
Waiting for me to open
But baby I didn't,
You were the one who broke
Every barrier of my life
With your honesty
That you left making a huge trace
In my wretched soul.

Let's meet again someday
But this time you won't have to suffer
Cause this time I would never
Let you leave me.
~Ricky Parker




sed by,
We both haven't ate anything since that day,
Or even drank of water
Yet we both survive like immortals.
I try to get up and leave,
Leave the door and go to some other place
But your love is holding me back.
I think to open this door
End your pain,
But then you would leave
That thought haunts me.

Are you being selfish or selfless dear?
Cause all we both can feel is the effect of
The painful love we share,
I wait for you to stop knocking,
And just leaving me without
A sad goodbye,
Lots of people gather around you,
Asking you if you have gone mad.
Why won't you leave me now?
After all if I open the door
You're gonna go anyway,
You don't answer and keep on knocking
I am here keep on hopping you would stop someday,

The earthquake is shaking the land
The flood is destroying everything.
Everyone is rushing to a safe place
Yet you're standing here
In front  of the door
Knocking again and again
Waiting for me to open
But baby I want you to know
That I am the person
 who you  would never
See again.

Your hands are full of scars now,
Blood is rushing out from every part of your body,
Eagles are flying  above you
Waiting to eat the flesh out of you,
Yet you stand out like a brave warrior
Fighting the door for years,
I am helpless, my heart is aching badly
I want to run to you now
Hold you close let my tears heal your every pain,
Let my kiss wash every sorrow in your life,
But I am holding myself because
Of one selfish thought.

The day has come,
When angels come for me,
To take me away to the heavens
Away from you,
I want you to break the door now,
But you're just knocking
Wanting me to let you in for a last time
The angels are even crying seeing you.
What have I done to you?
Why did I ever make you go through everything.

The satan is coming for your soul
The gods are asking you to come to them, be one among them.
Yet you're standing here
In front  of the door
Knocking again and again
Waiting for me to open
But baby I want you to know
That I am the person
 who you  would never
See again.

For the one last time I say I love you,
And close my eyes.
The door breaks now but you break with it.
Your body is shattered like broken piece of glass,
The eagles  which wanted to feast on you
Are bowing down to you now,
I see a soul floating past me saying
I Met you at last, now it's my time to go.
I don't know how I should feel,
I wave you goodbye,
And always have this memory stapled to my soul

That even after every difficulty
Even after me asking you to leave
Your hazel eyes turning to red because of the blood rushing out from them,
You could have left without seeing me
It wouldn't have done anything to you.

Yet you were standing here
In front  of the door
Knocking again and again
Waiting for me to open
But baby I didn't,
You were the one who broke
Every barrier of my life
With your honesty
That you left making a huge trace
In my wretched soul.

Let's meet again someday
But this time you won't have to suffer
Cause this time I would never
Let you leave me.
~Ricky Parker