9: following you everywhere.

Hey everyone another poem/song for you all this one is a little inspirational j guess and ain't a heartbreaking song and I am being little sad to say this but this will be one of my last poems in the blog as after December 2014. I won't be posting anything :") so thank you for being such good viewers! I hope I won't disappoint you in the these last days.
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You're a useless kid everyone says
You feel like a shit everyday
Nobody cares even if you die
Are you the one who thinks about it all night?
Have you ever felt so happy
Then got hurt my same people badly.
Do you ever think that,
Maybe everything is wrong with you.
But don't you fear now
Don't you feel alone in the dark place
Cause I am there holding a light
And following you everywhere.

Have you always dreamed about the loved one?
When you even got them do you fear to loose them.
Like something is missing away from you
All these days you're just finding it.
Are you the one who is stuck up in old memories,
Thinking how you used to be.
Don't you worry now!
I really know how you feel.
Maybe everything is broken inside you
But you're really trying to heal.
You feel like a scattered piece of glass.
Who everyone avoids or else they will be in pain.
But nobody gets how you even feel deep inside you.
You turn the music loud
So you can just live in the world where no one is saying anything to you.
Do you ever cry?
Hiding away from the crowd.
Don't you get scared now.
Don't you feel alone in the dark place
Cause I am there holding a light
And following you everywhere.

Why are you running so fast?
Are you chasing your dreams?
Is the time come when you can let yourself be free.
Fly like a humming bird now.
It's just what you want to see.
The world is so far!
Nobody can make you feel weak.
Cause you're the strongest out there.
Fighting everyday with all the people.
Who just want to change you.
Just be what you want.
Think that there is no tomorrow.
It's time to change.
Don't let them hurt you now.
And if you ever feel scared.
Just remember that  I am always there~

8 : Never let me go.

Another update :P before that THANKYOU SO MUCH FOR 240 PAGE VIEWS I LOVE YOU ALL FOR THAT ♥ so here comes my next poem/song and I swear I wanted to write a happy something but is it me or everything just turns sad so forgive me if I am depressing you :/ :3 I am good at depressing people though :P so here it goes

It just doesn't feel right
When you're not around
Its like something is missing from my soul
I don't know how to say that to you
But every inch of me wants you very badly.
Every moment of my life.
Maybe sometime I think you're the reason
Why I am surviving in this world.
All I want you to do now is hold me close
And Promise me that you would never let me go.
Please just look into my eyes,
So i can look into yours and drown in these feelings
I always had to say it, that every step i take
Everything I do, reminds me about only you.
I try to hide away in the blanket of fake happiness.
Because a part of me says i will hurt you badly.
In real all I wanna do is hold you close so you won't ever let me go.
The time has come like that,
Now I wanna smile only because of you.
I always wanted to tell you this
You're not my romeo nor I am your Juliet but
You're something I can trade the whole world for.
You're the one who I will always love.
So just never let me go.

The Forest Of Life :3

This Song is written by my Brother ♥ and it's beautiful so here its for you all.

I feel empty now. Like everything I had is gone. Like everything that used to worth a million dollars
It's not even worth a single Penny now.
Like I'm stuck up deep inside a Forest.
I'm losing the sense of direction with every step I take.
I just keep hoping a miracle will happen someday.
So I will just cheer up and let everything behind me fade.
Maybe I should just start it all from beginning/scratch.
Maybe I should give up now and let everything end.
Why not both? A little of this and a little of that.
Mostly bad things all should be left away
But sometimes the bad things are my idol.
I feel I should never let the memory of the mistakes leave me.
Maybe they aren't mistakes?
Maybe they are some mysteries in my life.
Who said i cant be the Sherlock this time
Solve every  problem in my life.
But something inside me says just let it go
It's not the time to find the hidden things, inside you.
Why isn't it time? Why do I have to wait more?  The voice inside me screams hard.
But then I realise something doesn't feel right.
Maybe that's the line I will and the regret upon rest of my life.
Then I feel that Everything's gonna be alright. Just don't let go everything which means something to you.
I should smile now let everything inside me out
Shine now.
Try to build a new dream which is worth to live in.
Because this is my beautiful life and I just won't let it fade away.

~Red. (THE ONE WHO MUST NOT BE NAMED. )

6 : Lonely bird.

I am a lonely bird
Flying in the never ending sea
Everything is so calm that life feels dead
I wait for a typhoon which would blow me away from everything.
Waiting most of my life I just fly away!
Crying everyday just to reach the end and see the pradise.
Away from the sea
Every morning every night I just fly away.
Searching for someone
A person who could make me feel less lonely.
Just when the time comes for the typhoon.
My wings are weak I become fragile.
Now I don't know if I wanna survive or just be lost in my dreams
I flutter once more towards my death.
Every inch of me wants to stop
Leaving all the pain I fly with all my might.
Towards my death or shall I call it destiny.
Now everything feels week like I am broken but
Then I realise
That ahead of me is my dream.
The place full of people
The paradise I was always waiting for
Alll my hard work isn't going into vain
I cry now but the tears of joy.
Now my everyday flying on lonely island looks like
Just a past which I can smile at.
All I wanna do now is fly but with joy and pride.
~Ricky Parker/Reogustus

5: The Pain.

I just wanna bleed to death.
I am tearing apart myself from this world.
Just sinking in the eternal pain.
Harming myself to get some relief.
I just smile,  try to laugh away the sorrows.
But inside I am just adding more misery to my life.
Crying more,  away from everyone.
Letting everyone fall behind me.
Trying to show everyone I am great.
but they just can't see that I am fading away.
Looking back at everything.
I only see myself,  laughing at every silly moment.
Now the past just is a happy memory to me in the present.
Where I am burning to death. Did I ever wait for a super hero?
To Come,  take me away save me.
So I am back to myself!
The reality just hits me hard now.
There is nobody for me.
There is no super man. Who would come and save me.
I am drowning in the pool of loneliness.
I am just starving for days.
So the time comes , when the food can be a reason for me to survive.
 I am just walking away from every happiness I ever had.
So the sadness just takes me away
posses me , so I don't feel anything later.
I am bidding goodbye to everyone now.
Cause maybe my time has come.
To leave this place and just die.
So nobody gets hurt by the silly me.
I am not strong, I am just week human being.
Breaking everyday.  Maybe one more hit.
I can't swallow more pain
Everything is over now.
Let me go now, cause I can't stand more of this pain.
Just let me go somewhere unknown
Cause I really can't handle this pain.

fourth post : I found myself.

Hey! Fourth or fifth post a new song I will update Every Monday,  Wednesday and Friday.  So for today there is something I have just written for you all :3 I hope you all actually don't like it.  Because nobody should like sad poems.  They're meant to be sad. So here I go.

I am left alone
In the middle of nowhere
Searching for you
In this endless place.
I can still hear your voice
Calling out my name
My eyes just search for you
I am not hungry or I wanna sleep now
All I wanna do is search for you now
Find you and just live forever happily.
Now that I am searching for you here
All I can think about is
How you will be after seeing me.
They say time changes people a lot
So will your love will still remain the same?
if I am little late to find you.
Will you still look at me with those loving eyes
When I get out of this place and find you.
Will you really hold me close and make me forget every pain I ever had in my life.
It's just seems few hours now
Me searching for you
But a part of me says
I searched for you too long
Maybe it's my time to quit
Just stay in this place till eternity craving for you.
I put up a little strength in me
Try to stand again.
Because now I don't know about anything
All I care now is finding you.
Maybe you're my mystery which I need in my life.
Or a beautiful treasure of mine which got lost.
whatever you're to me, I just can't lose you dear.
I look above, see the stars.
How they shine with so much happiness even if they're far away
You're my star now and I won't ever let you fade away.
I will Find you dear.
I have reached the end now
The deadly maze were I was trapped is getting over now,
Will you be happy to see me out?
I see you from my eyes now
It's you the same you whom I always craved for, I see your smile,  I now realise how fake it is.
How every time you just played with me.
Maybe you deserve to be lost here.
but then Something inside me says,
I haven't come here to find you
You don't give me happiness now
You're just a lost mystery to me dear
Which I am not ready to search for,
But now I realise, that while trying to find the fake you I have found the real self of mine
The lost part of me which I always missed, is back to me now.
Maybe everything does happen for a reason.
In the path to find you I found myself.

Third post : My Mon Cherre.

So yeah! One more day and one more poem/song of mine :D this song is written on a boys pov. Though yeah I did my best to write it like that.  I hope you all like it! So well here it comes this is for all the people who lost someone special and are always looking out for them!  It's song which says that they are looking from heavens and smiling! This song was edited by both idiots Ashwin and Rohan! There is a foreign word here which is mon chere which means my girl.  :") I hope you all like it! So here it goes and the next post will be a story I think ♥


When your shadow leaves you
When the memories haunt you
When your dreams fade
I will be the one to hold you.
When the tears roll down your eyes
I will be the one who will wash them away
You're my beautiful Maiden , My Mon Cherre.
I really won't let you go far away
You think you can handle everything?
Have you ever seen the smile in my face when you ask me for something
Girl you make my day
Like you're the light in my dark life
Though the way you're it just astonishes me.
Like you're an angel coming out of everywhere.
I wanna hold you close now,
Come near me now
I know it's my time to leave but don't let my memories fade
Cause I will be the one who will always be around Mon cherre.
Don't get lost in the hopes of past and how you can have me back
Just live in the present so your life is a gift to me.
I haven't loved you enough for this time.
I will come back from the heavens one day
That day when we reunite I won't ever let you go.
Just smile cherre, I am gonna be here soon and then I won't let you ever fall
Until don't let me fade away from your thoughts
Just be with me forever until the time you think I should be gone.
Goodbye cherre, I will be back one day!
Till then just live and smile.
So I can just forget all the misery i have ever been through.
Don't cry now just try to walk away from me
So once I get back to you, you will have nothing to regret upon.
~Ricky Parker/Reogustus.  

2 : Since you're gone.

This was supposed to be my first post or shall I say introduction post but well I just couldn't start a blog saying Goodbye to forever a person whom I will always miss. I just wanted to start with a normal introduction cause he would want it!  So anyway!  I don't want you all to get emotional now or just call me 'duh she is attention seeker trying to act depressed' so here it goes this song os for you Rick And Rike ♥ I miss you both so much I hope you're always with me.

I am just a broken Glass now
Nobody cares to see
Looking out everywhere to somebody to be with
Asking everyone for help to just heal me.
But since your gone everything feels broken
Since your gone I don't know even what am I thinking

It's never been like this, I never want to cry hard
But you're gone now.
If I even think about the memories
I don't know if should laugh or cry
When anyone tries to cheer up its feels more like
What you would do and that just wrecks me up.
But since you're gone everything just feels so broken
Since you're gone everything is like a waste around me.

Have you ever seen me like this?
Why don't you just come back
Why you wanna break all promises?
You said you won't ever leave me.
Never let me be sad
But now you're gone..
Leaving me alone to get haunted by your memories

But now you're gone to a place where I can never be going
Do you wanna make me weak? If no why can't you just come back.
Don't go leaving me alone..
Just let me hold you close for once so I can just say a merry goodbye
But just don't go leaving me here alone.
Cause But since you're gone everything just feels so broken
Since you're gone everything is like a waste around me.

~Ricky Parker/ Reogustus. 

1. Wedding Song

First Post.


Its time to let the two souls mix
Its time to unite two lives into one
Its time to become from you and i, to us.
My life will end without you
I sing from my bellowed heart
My dear you reason to be alive.

The whole way we walk hand in hand.
Showing the world how sucessful we will be.
We won't be talking about differences now
We dont see a clear world without each other.
I may go blind But as my love
you will be the vision to my eyes.
you may go heartless because of miseries in life
But i will always be there for you
Sharing my heart with you.
I dont want to live or die.
I just want to be alive for you.
Just for you.
You're like the wonderful dream i ever had.
But this time everything is real.
I dont want to shout you're name.
And say i love you.
Because your name will echo in my heart. forever.
My love, marriage is the stage where we unite ourselves.
To become into a single person from two
My love this aint the song or my loves ending
But its the beginning of our wondeful journey of love.

~Ricky Parker/ Reogustus.