with me

I hide my scars behind the makeup
Which everyone calls me pretty about
I was so shy,
I was just an innocent.
But this new place changed me too much
They say i am great,
They adore me like I am a god
But none comes near me
To share the pain of my soul
I am look up and down
Again and again
To see if someone ain't staring at me now.

Do they know
That even I have heart
Do they know
That even I feel the pain
When everybody wants to be me
Everybody wants to replace me
But nobody wants to be with me.

I see a new girl coming by
She waves me and tells me hai
I ignore her because of my so called fake friends
I read books people laugh
They say why am I acting like a nerd?
I dance to let out my anger
They say see your shape fatass
I sing to let out all pain
They say your voice is like the fucking flowing drain
I don't even know sometimes
Who i am living for un this life.

Do they know
That even I have heart
Do they know
That even I feel the pain
When everybody wants to be me
Everybody wants to replace me
But nobody wants to be with me.

I see a guy in the hallway
His eyes makes me wanna runaway
somewhere far away where no one would judge me anyday
His laugh makes my world go round
His words make my life go faster
He is just so beautiful that I don't wanna loose him ever after
but then the though haunts me
Will he look at me the same way everyone does
Would he treat like how everyone does.

Do they know
That even I have heart
Do they know
That even I feel the pain
When everybody wants to be me
Everybody wants to replace me
But nobody wants to be with me.

I walk from the hall way
To cafe
The winds blows too harder
My whole file of paper goes everywhere
He helps me pick up everything
Then talks to me over a coffe
With him it's seems life is so real
He id my everything let the fake things go down the drain
But will he ever look at me the way I do
I shut up and go to my own way
He comes running
His breath is raising
But hid eyes shows the uncertainty
He asks will you go out with me
I don't know what to do
To let this whole fakness go
Be a looser or
Be With the one I love

Do they know
That even I have heart
Do they know
That even I feel the pain
When everybody wants to be me
Everybody wants to replace me
But nobody wants to be with me.

I say yes,
I leave everything behind
Cause it's my time to be myself
~Ricky Parker.